Struggling In the AM: but Making It Through
Patty L. Fletcher
October, 26 2017
Good morning campbells world visitors!
I hope this message finds you doing super awesome.
Here, I am trying to get through, just one moment at a time. Some days are like that for me.
I woke this morning, feeling foggy in my head. I feel as if I am trapped somehow inside myself, feel emotional, and kind of lost.
I know these feelings will pass. They are a product of many things.
They are a product of my Bipolar Disorder. They are a product of my Fibromyalgia, and they are a product of my current situation.
When you roll those all together into one big ball, they totally can snowball out of control.
So, what to do about it?
Well, first I must try and clear my mind enough to function. I’m starting to feel a bit better in that respect. I mean I managed to make some coffee, blog a couple posts, and put in a load of laundry.
For me, this morning, that’s a pretty good bit of stuff.
What I have to do now, is prioritize the day, and figure out what needs doing the most.
Yesterday while I was at the Oasis Women’s Center, I found while trying to fill out a food stamp application online, that the account I created seemed to belong to someone else with my same name. My name came up, and it allowed my social security number, but the address, phone number, and case numbers were all wrong.
So, that is obviously something that must be squared away straight away.
Then, there’s the continuing problem of trying to feed myself daily. I know that Meals On Wheels will be here soon, and, I’m expecting a client’s payment, so I’m hopeful those things will take care of today, and I won’t have to think about it too much.
I also have some money in my Paypal account, and I’ve learned that one can buy some foods online with Paypal, and so I’m going to check more into that today.
Looks like, I sat here and developed a plan.
Now, the hope is that I can execute said plan, keep my mind together long enough to see it through, and not have too many melt-down episodes while doing so.
I have already had one this morning, and it was brought on by the silliest thing. I could not find a hoody my sister bought for me last Christmas, and by the time I did find it I was a blubbering mess.
Something like that used to be of no concern to me, but now, I fall apart like some sort of idiot.
I am simply so tired of doing all these things alone.
Yes, I know I have the support of my followers.
Yes, I know that I have this new-found women’s center, and yes, I have a lot of FB friends who encourage me daily, but what I really need this morning is a partner. Someone to put their arms around me, to tell me this will be OK, and who could see me through this dark time.
I have my Campbell, and he does all he can, but I’ve noted of late, that my stress is becoming just a bit much for him at times.
He’s always been rock steady, and he’s never let my emotional self bother him too much, thus the reason that he was matched with me.
In fact my Seeing Eye trainer was quite amazed at how well Campbell handled all of me, and said many times, how awesome it was that he took it all in stride. It had, been a source of concern for the folks at The Seeing Eye I’m sure.
But, Campbell is older now, and just as do we all, he is losing some of his ability to deal, and so I mustn’t lean so heavily on him, and need to give him some space from time to time.
He let me know this morning that he needed that space, and I am giving it to him.
What is the purpose of this writing?
Hell! I really don’t know.
Other than to try and sweep some of the cobwebs out of my head, I cannot really tell you, but somehow, it seems to be working.
As I write, drink my coffee, and somehow get into the rhythm of the washing machine, I feel somewhat better.
So, I thank you for once again going along with me on this journey, and think I’m going to try to make something happen.
Here is today’s Magickal Meaning. Once again, it speaks to me.
Until next time this is Patty, who’s determined to keep it middle of the road, and King Campbell A.K.A. Bubba who is taking the morning off saying…
May harmony find you, and blessid be.
GrannyMoon Says Today Is: Thor’s Day
Energy: Male, Ruler: Jupiter – Rules growth, expansion, generosity – Use
for magick involving growth, expansion, prosperity, money, business,
attracting more of what you have.
Today’s Magickal Influences ~ Luck, Religion, Healing, Trade And Employment,
Treasure, Honors, Riches, Legal Matters
Today’s Goddesses: Juno, Hera, Kwan Yin, Mary, Cybele, Tara, Mawu, Mlaba
Mwana Waresa, Ishtar, Nuit
Perfumes: Stock, Lilac, Storax, Aloes
Incense: Nutmeg, Henbane
Color of The Day: Purple, Indigo, Blue
Colors for Tomorrow: Light Blue, Pale Green
Lucky Sign: Thursday Is The Lucky Day For Sagittarius And Pisces
I suppose if I need to be attracting more of what I have, I should first list that which I have…
1. A wonderful Seeing Eye Guide Dog who loves me very much, and guides me safely everywhere I wish to go each day.
2. A warm safe home to live in.
3. Some family, and lots of friends, who support me daily.
4. The Oasis Women’s Center.
6. Food coming.
7. My faith.
8. Soon to be clean clothes to put onto my body.
9. The ability to write.
10. Two published books, Campbell’s Rambles: How a Seeing Eye Dog Retrieved My Life, and Bubba Tails From the Puppy Nursery At The Seeing Eye.
OK, now I know what I have, and thus can draw more.
Thanks guys for helping me figure all this out.