AUTHORS, THEY’RE ONLY HUMAN: Naming Your Feelings by Patty L. Fletcher Inspirational Offering Horoscope provided by DailyOM.com

AUTHORS, THEY’RE ONLY HUMAN: Naming Your Feelings by Patty L. Fletcher Inspirational Offering Horoscope provided by DailyOM.com

The horoscope I share here after my thoughts comes from DailyOM.com

Each day I read these offerings I’m amazed at how they directly relate to what’s going on in my life. This morning I woke up feeling a barrage of feelings.

Physically I felt great. I’d slept well, Campbell hadn’t awakened sick in the night, I woke up early enough to enjoy some ‘Me Time’ before Campbell needed out so the day got off to a great start.

Even though we are to go later today and have Campbell’s GI ultrasound and I’m nervous about it I felt the day held some productive promise. Then, I began to slide toward doubt

After I’d had a 24 OZ glass of water, washed my face, brushed my teeth and hair, and taken care of my morning necessary and enjoyed a fresh cup of wonderfully strong hot coffee with just a swirl of hot milk, I was ready to begin the next phase of my morning routine.

It was 6:30 and after checking to see what time sunrise was so I could try and merge Campbell’s first walk of the day with that time I put away my computer and headed to the bedroom to dress and get ready. My goal was to get him fed, and meds given in time for sunrise so we could take a short walk.

I’d noted that Campbell’s best times come in the mornings so hoped to exorcise him a bit before settling in for the morning’s marketing work.

My hopes were soon dashed. Though he ate well, and took all his meds without complaint, once outside I found things were not going as well for him as I’d first believed.

Once again, his stools were soft and barely formed enough to pick up, and worse yet he did not want to walk. When his business was done, he turned around and tugged me back toward the house.

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I tried encouraging him on down the block, but he wouldn’t have it. I tried to hide my feelings of disappointment. Tried hard as possible to keep that ‘happy upbeat voice’ my trainer and others from The Seeing Eye had taught me to use when handling him no matter what I felt. Tried to block the fear and doubt about all that lies ahead for us out of my mind and somehow, I managed it until I got him inside and unhooked from his leash.

Knowing I was losing all composure, once Campbell had headed off to his room for a drink of water and to check out all his toys Multi colours Campbell with ball in mouth.jpgBubba In Bed With Duck.jpg I quickly turned and headed wordlessly back out the door.

 

On our way back in when I’d stopped to toss away Campbell’s bagged leavings, I’d noted that our trashcan and recycling bin were not sitting as they should’ve been and so I was relieved to have an excuse to go back out to collect myself while straightening them.

After my chore was done, I turned back toward the steps. Just as I put my foot up onto the first step I whispered, “Goddess, this is the most unfair thing ever. Things aren’t right with Campbell, I need to know what’s going on and I need strength. I’m so very alone here.”

Suddenly it was all too much and stepping back down onto the ground, leaning against the porch rail I folded my arms and lowering my face into them began to cry.

I don’t know how long I stood there. I only know I had to release some of the fear and frustration I felt before going back inside. Campbell couldn’t help whatever was wrong. He couldn’t help that we’re all alone here and he couldn’t help that I knew he could no longer work for me as he should and that I needed to get a new working dog and he couldn’t help how all that was going to make him feel and he couldn’t help that all of this scared me to death.

I knew I needed to go ‘Forward’ with the process of getting the paperwork completed so The Seeing Eye could begin searching for a new dog for me. While I’d filled out the online portion of the application, I’d not yet taken the medical forms to my doctor to have them filled out and sent into the school.

I knew I was stalling, and I knew I couldn’t keep that up much longer.

I had so many concerns about how to manage all that lie ahead I simply felt unable to take a step in any direction.

Finally the cold began to tiptoe into my tear-filled fog so after taking a few deep cleansing breaths to calm myself I headed back inside to go on with my day.

As I came through the door, I heard Campbell’s claws clicking on the kitchen linoleum and new he’d been in there looking for anything that might be left on the floor. Although I knew there wasn’t anything, he could get into that would hurt him because I’d taken to being extremely careful about the floor and the trash, I decided not to let him get by with sneaking around while I was not inside. I knew that I was going to have to start leaving him home alone soon and I hoped I’d not have to shut him into his crate while doing so.

“Campbell! Come! Out! Leave it! Go to your place!”

Clickety Clickety Click.

Out he came giving a mighty jingly jangly shake and sneeze as he obeyed.

He went flying passed me and into his room. I called after him happily, “Good boy! Great job!”

As I put away my shoes and coat, I was once again hit with a surge of fear and doubt. “Damn it! How on earth am I going to manage all I need to do here? How on earth will I be able to manage Campbell and another working dog? I cannot stand the thoughts of giving Campbell to another, and I despise the thoughts of using a cane. What in all hells am I going to do?”

I stood there taking deep breaths and as I breathed deeply in and out, I wished there were a way that I could somehow have a trainer with me while incorporating a new dog into mine and Campbell’s lives.

For me the problem was simple, I feared handling what I saw as a monumental task all on my own. Knowing that I would have to bring a new dog home and figure out all the logistics of it while having Campbell with no help what so ever scared hell out of me.

I couldn’t pick up visual clues. I wouldn’t have anyone there to help me when I got home with a new dog and then brought Campbell back from where ever he stayed while I was gone to school, and I had no clue what so ever how I’d manage any of it, but I knew it was going to have to happen and soon.

I’d all but stopped living outside the house. Every outing had to be planned down to the last detail. and this had to stop.

I felt my composure slipping yet again, and just as I thought I’d have to make a mad dash back outside or to the bathroom to cry again I heard the soft tinkling of Campbell’s bell and knew he was asking me to come hang out with him. In his way he was saying…

“Mom, it’s OK. We’ll figure it out. For now, come and hang out with me.”

That’s Campbell, living in the now, and helping me to do the same.

Once Campbell and I had our morning hangout time and I’d had breakfast I went back to reading my morning email and when I came across this horoscope, I was amazed.

Naming my feelings, accepting them and being with them is exactly what I must do.

Yesterday it told me to acknowledge my intuitive side more and that too was spot on as I’ve been shown quite a few signs along the way of late and though I’m having trouble accepting some of what they say, they’re there and they’re right in line with what I’m currently going through.

If you follow me regularly, you’ll know that what I’m saying is so and you’ll be able to relate the following with what I’ve shared in the past and what I share today.

 

Name Your Feelings

Scorpio Horoscope
February 25, 2019

The complexity of your feelings could make you feel frustrated today. It may seem like your thoughts are at odds with each other and that understanding them may be overwhelming, if not impossible. Perhaps today you can focus on being at ease with and accepting everything that arises. As a feeling occurs, take a moment to verbally name it–simply acknowledge it. Tell yourself if you are feeling sad, irritated, happy, or confused. Once you name your emotion, take time to be with it. Allow yourself to care about what is happening without any struggle to erase it. If you are present with each emotion that arises, you may notice that even though your feelings seem convoluted at first, once you identify them, they are actually straightforward. They arise and pass one at a time.

When we label our emotions we find that their intricacy unravels to reveal only one feeling or thought. Our minds tend to race faster than we can imagine. It can seem like we are thinking hundreds of conflicting notions at a time. In fact, our racing minds are just reflecting the speed with which our brain processes our emotions. Slowing down and naming our thoughts allows us to see our emotions as they occur one by one. Being in the moment in this way can also alleviate some of the irritation we feel when our thoughts gallop through our heads. As you watch your feelings today, you will notice that the many layers of your thoughts will become less complicated.
If you’d like to know more about how Campbell and I first came to be together and learn all about The Seeing Eye and the process of training to receive a Dog Guide and all that entails, you may do so by reading mine and Campbell’s work.

Interested? If so, please visit:  http://www.dldbooks.com/pattyfletcher/ .Would you like to assist The Seeing Eye which is a not for profit organization? If so you may donate by visiting:  http://www.TheSeeingEye.org/ .Until next time this is Patty who is a mixed bag of emotions today and King Campbell Super Semi Retired Seeing Eye Dog A.K.A Bubba who is snoring in the sun saying…

Thank you for reading, may harmony find you, and blessid be.

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  1. Very nice, Patty! With you today as you and Campbell move forward. Blessings and love to you!

    1. Thanks to you Joan I’m holding on tightly to you and all the rest who are with me along my journey.

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